Things are looking up...

Ahhh what a relief it is to have a job. As many of you know about a month and a half ago I lost my job at Lowes. I worked there for 3 years of my life and put my blood, sweat, and many tears into it. It gave me the opportunity to spend a lot of time with my son and really figure out what I want to do with my life. Over the last couple of weeks I have been doing interviews with WalMart and finally got the job! I am so excited. I love spending all of this time with my son but I really need to get out of this house and socialize. I also applied for financial aid and some time this week I am going to go to the college and take a placement test to see where I am. This job is also going to open up other doors for me. I am going to get a gym membership and really start working to better myself. It's going to be really hard and I am really going to need some encouragement from all of my fellow bloggers and friends. So let us hold up our invisible toast glasses and toast to new and better changes for life!

Time for a change.

Ok so I have seriously decided that I need to lose weight. I keep looking at myself in the mirror and can not believe I have let it get this bad. I am starting to feel shaky I can't sleep at night because I can't breath. I can't stit on the floor and play with my son because it is just too hard to get back up. I get out of breath no matter what I do and I just feel...blah. So starting now I am going to change things. I am not the person I want to be. I want to be able to do things with my son and I want to be around when he grows up. So wish me luck and I will be sure to keep everyone updated. I am going to start a video diary on my results. First video will be here tomorrow.

I am going to miss you

So as many of you know my parents are moving to Wyoming in November. For 23 years of my life I haven't been without my parents. Unless you count the 3 miserable months in Kentucky but they saved me from that. I know that I rely too much on my parents and that I need to find my own wings but I am really really going to miss them. They are the only grandparents that Killian has and his life would be so blessed to have them around. I can't keep writting this because it is making me cry. I love you mom and dad and I am going to miss you more then you know.